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Becoming famous causes you to question yourself in ways you would never imagine. When all of society is analyzing your every word and move trying to interpret who you are and whether or not they like you, unknown Truths about yourself are sometimes revealed. The problem is, the Truth is like a double edged sword, and if it’s not handled with care, it can become quite destructive…#AstrosAdventures
The night I told you that I’d fallen in love with you, after you rejected me, I asked you why you wouldn’t just leave me alone. You said it was because I was a friend who didn’t appear to be in a good place. I looked like I could use help. I’m writing this letter as a confession because I’m at a point now where the mention of your name pulls so strongly at my heartstrings, I can hardly bare it. I wasn’t in a bad place. I was probably in the best place of my life. It’s just that sometimes looks can be deceiving, and I didn’t know how to explain to you the truth: you were the missing piece of information that I needed to plan out how I’d move forward with the rest of my life.
I have to write this because I don’t know the next time I’ll be able to talk with you, and I have to move forward with my life. You may already know everything I’m about to tell you. You may not even care, but I have to be completely honest because I’m 22 years old, and I’m tired. I’m tired of being hopeful for things I have no control over. Not because of the pain of rejection or even the disappointment of not getting what I want. I’m tired of battling the constant doubt.
Before you went to see Becky in Kentucky, you sent Jasmyn a text that said if it didn’t work out with Becky, you’d ask me out on a date. No one knew if it was a joke or if you were serious, but one thing that I knew was it was at least an opportunity.
You see, I’d been strangely attracted to you from the moment I met you. Of course, you were married at the time, and so I assumed there’d never be a chance, but even still, there was something about you that made me want to ride across the country and sell books door to door. A couple years later, there was something again, something that almost made me turn down my dream internship to repeat the experience that had been one of the worst in my life (worst in my life being no exaggeration. Given your most recent understanding of who I am, you can hopefully imagine how painful that experience actually was).
When Jasmyn began her relationship with Peter, I saw it as an opportunity to reignite a friendship that had always been attractive to me. And when she began dating you, it was even better because now I had a way of seeing if it was worth reigniting after all.
Of course, in no time you completely won me over. Just a night and a day with you, and I was lost on your magic carpet ride. I was willing to do anything and everything because when I was with you, I felt safe and loved. It’s probably pitiful to think that with all of the friends I have, and given the size of my family, you were the only person in the world who could make me feel that way. While ideas danced around in my head that I may be in love with you, I refused to allow myself to believe it because I’d been through the pain of falling in love with men who could never love me as I loved them.
Eventually, I chalked the feeling up to you being a really good salesman, and planned to move forward with my life. You seemed too good to be true, which left one alternative. You were manipulating me to boost the residual income you received through recruiting people to your sales team. Why me? Why not? You were a skilled salesman, and I was a vulnerable target having never truly experienced unconditional, human love. I didn’t want to lose myself in a false reality, so I put the brakes on my feelings towards you.
And then Jasmyn received a text. If it didn’t work out with Becky, you’d ask me on a date. Suddenly an entire new world of possibilities opened up. Perhaps I hadn’t misread the situation. Perhaps it wasn’t all my fantasy after all. I decided to ask the Universe.
I read your horoscope, I read Becky’s horoscope, and did a comparative analysis against my own. The universe seemed to be telling me that it couldn’t work out with Becky, and that you and I stood a really strong chance. But as I spiritual as I am, I am also very analytical, so I needed more information.
I chose to forget about it. If you came to me, then I’d go. If you didn’t, then I’d leave it all alone. I couldn’t help myself. I asked how things were going, and the day you dropped Becky off at the airport, elated, you said it was great. She was amazing, and you were happy.
I was sad at first. And then I remembered there was hope. I had a text that said, maybe Paul could love me. I decided to fight for you. I’d never fought for anyone before, but for some reason, I felt I had to fight for you. You came and picked me up from the library, and I continued to collect information about you. Within a couple of days of living at your house, the tables turned. You asked me to trust you, and I did. Almost completely. I was scared to tell you how I felt because I knew you were with Becky, and I didn’t know if it was all in my head. I didn’t want to lose the friendship the way I had so many times in the past just because of my feelings for you. But more importantly, I didn’t want to lose the potential to be more than friends.
I realized much later that during my time at your house, you thought I was trying to seduce you sexually. As great as sex would be with you (and as amazing for you that it would be with me), what I really was trying to seduce from you was love. Human touch. Physical comfort.
I read people, and all of the signs pointed to you being in love with me as much as I was in love with you. The more emotional an experience, the more it’s burned into my memory, and every moment with you, sober or otherwise, is recorded forever. I constantly played back the memories, wondering if I was imagining them or if they were real…constantly…
You thought I wanted to stay at your house. I couldn’t care less about shelter. You thought I wanted your food…I grew up going to bed hungry…you thought I wanted to live my entire life asking for things from others and giving nothing in return…I just wanted to rest for one summer…and if I had to be homeless to do that (which I did), then that’s what I would do. The only flaw in my plan to get out of my homelessness was you. I couldn’t figure out what you wanted from me in order to love me, and so I couldn’t plan my next steps. You’re just so difficult to predict.
And then you told me that night on Skype that you could never love me in the way that I’d imagined. My heart shattered. Completely. I’d been rejected countless times before, but never had I been rejected by someone with whom I shared such beautiful memories. Worst of all, you wanted to be my friend so that I could constantly be reminded of my rejection and stupidity for ever believing someone as amazing as you, could love someone as complex and abnormal as me.
And then Peter was on Skype and you apologized, and against my wishes, hope was reborn. I didn’t want it to be, but how could the universe be wrong? Weren’t we meant to be together?
During my meditation today, I realized that my life will completely change tomorrow. It’s the first day of fall, and my summer rest is over. I’ll be returning to my life, ready to make moves to change the world for the better. Given my talents and abilities, I’ll most likely end up making lots of money and using it to be the change I want to see in the world. My assumption is that I’ll change the world in a way as powerful as MLK, Malcom X, Mother Theresa, Ghandi…some people say I’m conceited. I believe I’m simply determined and sickened by the injustice and the disparity I see all around me. I have a burning desire to enact change, and so I will.
This letter was long…I’ve tried several times to get over you, but every time I do, I think, what if…
And I am ever the dreamer, the romantic, ever hopeful. I trust my instincts more than I trust anyone else’s words because I see deception all around me all of the time. My instincts tell me that not only would we be happy together, we’d be powerful. Our love would serve as an example to the world. But that’s not what’s important. This is:
I’m in love with you. I’ve never met anyone as loving and generous, as kind and accepting, as creative and intelligent as you. I’ve never been held by someone as confident and strong, as gentle and protecting, as fierce and loyal as you. When I look into your eyes I see an innocent beauty that is fighting to survive against a brokenness and a pain that has left its mark. I see that pain, and I want to hold you forever so that you feel the love that I have for you and understand that I want to use all of whatever power I may have to make it go away.
Your life isn’t perfect, and yet all you want to do is help. For nothing in return, except love. I’d prepared myself to be alone forever, in my battle to change the world, and then you came. As I saw more of who you were, I fell deeper and deeper in love. I knew I could fix my life in a matter of months, but after being with you for just a week, I didn’t want to have to imagine my life without you in it. Not as broskis, but as lovers, as partners, forever. You pushing me to grow, and me pushing you. Our example pushing the world. Against all odds. Race, gender, societal norms…Paul and Daniel. What are we? Who knows? Who cares? Simply together…
I’m dramatic, I know…but that’s the truth. That’s some of what’s locked away in the mysterious, green notebook. Our hour long conversation that we never had. I’m probably crazy for believing and hoping, but you know how I feel…crazy is genius. –Daniel Ephraim Miller aka Astro
If society is ready to embrace a trend, almost anyone can start one—and if it isn’t, then almost no one can.–
I’m thinking of starting a trend tonight…:)
Duncan Watts, cited by Clive Thompson in Is The Tipping Point Toast?
Anything to undo the baloney that Gladwell has spread around.
This is interesting because it can better help us quantify and analyze how we naturally output information. If we can learn to control it, we can possibly give off information as perfectly as we want to causing others to perceive us exactly how we want to be perceived…
In a Mood? Call Center Agents Can Tell
“It’s not what you say. It’s how you say it,” says Dan Emodi, vice president for marketing at Beyond Verbal. “Listening to these patterns, we can allow machines for the first time to understand the emotional side of our communications.”
The more invasive audio mining also has the potential to unnerve some consumers, who might squirm at the idea of an unknown operator getting an instant entree into their psyche.
Full Story: NYT
"Remembering your true nature is all about tapping into your divine imagination. As spoken of previously, there is an essence within you which is called “the inner child" and as mentioned this part of your self is in full charge of your imagination and is the part of yourself which is the most connected with the Higher Self. The inner child is the most connected to the Higher Self because it does not place limitations on things as much - as it is the most un-influenced part of the self in regards to its concept of reality. The inner child is the most in touch with all twelve of the human perceptions. This is why it is vital to nourish your inner child and work through your shadow issues so that you may liberate it further.
Your Higher Self exists in a state beyond linear time or dimensional restrictions. These two concepts apply only to those who are playing a role within the lower densities which humans are also a part of - as it is a necessary for the experience of your soul upon your planet. The concept of time’s illusion is hard to express to beings who are trapped within it. One must understand that past, future, and a perception of the present based upon these two are all illusions. Time, like parallel realities, is much like an ocean which ripples in different ways based upon how you touch it. Those ripples effect your concept of now. Your concept of now helps you wield the manifestation of the future. The great paradox for you is that time can only be effected with being within the now moment, but to manifest the now you must tap into the future and past. This is why the energetic nest is crucial as a home base.
One aligns themselves with their Higher Self when one begins to redefine themselves through pulling on the resources of parallel selves of other realities within the present and integrating these aspects of self into a whole sense of self based on how you wish to define yourself. One integrates desirable traits of their parallel lives by working with the timelines of the ‘past’ to define the present. When the present is defined and desirable then the future becomes malleable. This is the art of self-creation in its fullest and of stepping into your personal power by not allowing anything else to have power over you.
When one aligns with their Higher Self they begin the process of ascension through density, as the Higher Self is the first major anchor point of this path. This is done through time travel balanced with planetary consciousness. Time travel is only possible with the use of the divine imagination. All parallel selves have different pasts which effect different outcomes in the concept of the ‘now’. The past defines a person in a positive or negative manner based upon how they react to situations and how they’ve allowed situations to mold them. This doesn’t mean to be ignorant or in denial of the past but rather to re-explore it to change how these experiences have effected you in regards to your present beliefs and definition of self and then integrating these new sets of traits by aligning with parallel versions of your self that exist in different realities and by visiting desirable outcomes of self and world. By acquiring the desirable pieces of self you begin to effect your other parallel selves in a positive way.
However, if the desire is not set on navigating the timelines with a desire to heal your heart for the purpose of self-growth and the raising of others you will reap what you sow and this will direct the outcome of the future’s manifestation. The focus upon personal success and worldly desires will lock you into a very limited reality. The inner self is a child and children can tend to be short-sighted about consequences. If your intention is for personal achievement and not for uplifting the greater whole then ascension will not be achieved - as this furthers you from global consciousness which is the next evolutionary leap in your path of ascension. The personal dream should be focused upon as well as the collective dream - as they are two components of a whole. This is why teachings regarding “the law of attraction” and manifestation are often a tool of Archons presenting themselves as spiritual teachers to keep you focused solely on yourself through material and emotional gain and ignoring anything of the collective that makes you feel uneasy. Do you see this trap in regards to ascension? This ideology keeps your consciousness isolated instead of united.
Your energetic ascension is paralleled with how you much you begin to align with your higher chakras and get them into a healthy balance. The Higher Self is accessed through your solar chakra, but it cannot be fully accessed until you have balanced your lunar chakra dealing with parallel selves and concepts and navigation of time. And this cannot outweigh your soul-star chakra of planetary consciousness. All the chakras are needed to work in balance to keep the spiral of ascension open and each chakra is elevated based upon the frequency of the chakra below it.
As always the higher heart is your compass and should always be used to guide your path.”
[…] the idea of the future being different from the present–
is so repugnant to our conventional modes of thought and
behavior that we, most of us, offer a great resistance to acting
on it in practice.
John Maynard Keynes (1937)
The worst part is that contemporary trends indicate that the relatively immediate future will be so completely different than how we collectively imagine life to be now. Those who cannot make the change, will be left behind. #Adapt to Survive
Take control of your life. Fear should rarely, if ever, affect your actions. Particularly the fear of death. We are not these material bodies. We are spirit beings. The sooner you realize this, the sooner you will be set free.